Hahaha!!! Nice!!! Magkakasundo tayo!!! Although medyo magkaiba--yung sayo, mga lotion at mga gentle stuff. Sakin naman, puro mga asido at matatapang na chemicals at mga orals meds. Hahaha!!!
Pagbalik mo dito, ang beauty beauty mo na. Hahaha!!
We die everyday. The moment we step out of our houses, we become sensitive to how the world will see us. We mute our colors and hide the mannerisms that could betray us. We try as hard as possible to be inconspicuous in our words and actions. We look for nuances of what makes a man straight and so we stifle our tendencies and inclinations in order to be like them. We call the men bro or dude or whatever sounds manly in the offices that we work in.
It's one of those days when I'm drawing blank. When a weekend has passed and a blank page remains a blank page. It's frustrating to be unproductive; when ideas aren't forthcoming. I know what it is--my mind is distracted. And until I remove those distractions, I can't move on.
It's not false modesty when I diffuse people's compliments on how I look. In the gym, it has ranged from "nice lookin' man" to "hot Asian" or "mighty cute" to "the nicest smile this state has ever seen." Sometimes I'd fake a smile, say thanks, or look at them quizzically. Because I don't get it. I remember what my friend used to say: kung mabenta ka sa ibang bansa, ibig sabihin pangit ka sa Pinas kasi gusto ng foreigners exotic. I can live better with that rather than a string of compliments that I don't consider real. I've known myself consciously for a million years, stared reluctantly and begrudgingly at the mirror every waking moment, and I never saw what others did. I never liked what I saw and I've simplified a lot of things, like shaving my hair regularly, so that I won't have to spend half my life staring at a mirror. I'm comfortable with my skin, but I'm just not my type. If I were to
Hahaha!!! Nice!!! Magkakasundo tayo!!! Although medyo magkaiba--yung sayo, mga lotion at mga gentle stuff. Sakin naman, puro mga asido at matatapang na chemicals at mga orals meds. Hahaha!!!
ReplyDeletePagbalik mo dito, ang beauty beauty mo na. Hahaha!!
Malandi ka rin gaya ni Carabrant! lol
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